Jeni-RIF

ada cewek yang namanya jeni,
kesukaannya kok makan teri,
nilai sekolahnya… wow paling tinggi,
so pasti temannya pada ngiri

kok jeni lu pake kawat gigi,
udah gitu sekolah jalan kaki,
bilang mami, malah dicaci maki,
waktu minta izin ke party,

emang biasa dia, jalan sendiri,
walau kadang dia merasa so lonely,
tapi bukannya dia enggak punya nyali,
lalu dia bilang… ah gua kan nggak peduli

jeni… jeni… jeni anak mami
jeni… jeni… pake kawat gigi

sigh, nangis gue baca liriknya. najoooong nih apa apaan nama gue dibikin lagu gini :s

your last kisses <3

it’s all my fault. kiss her for your last time. hug her for your missing time. and keep her for your life. such a pain. i can’t be like this anymore. .. so this is life. when you love someone, keep it till your last breath, deep deep down in your heart, never let her go from your side. just keep it yours.

love failed. i did it.

its sucks. but still then. i heart you.

cupu <3

biacthday !

thanks Cellyn Josephine & Kevin Sebastian

thaaanks peopleeee <3

thaaanks kenneh stasc selin cha2 grace tata sebas trido

thaank God for being 15. ini keni yg muterin lilinnya kamfretoast!

thanks for tons of tweets, texts, phones, hugs, walls, and comments. may God bless you forever and always. may your wishes and prayers come true along years to go. love ya cyups <3

RIP ; sight.

gue masih inget saaat saat dikelas ngeledekin dia, gue masih inget gue gak pernah ngerjain PR dr dia, gue masih inget masa masa kelas 8 gue adalah masa paling indah krn gue gak pernah belajar. dan nilai gue 80 ke atas semua. gue inget cara dia nyapa dan negur gue pas ketauan nyontek. gue inget waktu gue ngejer dia krn dia ngambek sm kelas gue. dan ninggalin gitu aja.

tapi abis itu dia ketawa. dia senyum. dia bikin kita ketawa

selamat jalan ya pak. saya emang banyak dosanya sama bapak. tapi saya bener bener minta maaf sama bapak. istri bapak cantik loh. anaknya jg ganteng pak. serius saya ini. kalo disurga ada internet, comment ya pak. make sure kalo bapak sampe di surga. oh ya, kata edo, bapak jangan mikirin soal2 mat lagi ya pak. saya tau, .. kata istri bapak.. semangat bapak buat ngajar. masih ada sampe detik terakhir bapak nafas.

finally, internet connection <3 yay!

hu uh abaw udah mati gik ngik mati dia mati bareng sama data data gue. lenyap masuk dalam kubur bareng sama foto foto gue segambreng sama lagu lagu sama … file data data gue termasuk novel2 najong itu SEMUANYA.

waktu dibilangin ilang total.., yak gue nangis.

HUHU YA ABIS MENURUT LO GIMANA GITU KASIAN KAN DIA MATI NYUSAHIN GRRRRRR. nyokap gue dgn nyolotnya msh nawarin bwt upgrade isi laptop gue makin nangis guaaaaaa.

uh okay then, gtg. tar kalo ada palakan internet lagi, cyups cyups cerita lagi ya kita <3 <3

ps : counting 15… ADUH GUE KAPAN PUNYA KTP nyaaaaaaaa. aaaaah <3

farkddd.

lo nggak tau.. rasanya siang siang ada angin sepoi sepoi tambah lo main gitar kayak mau godain gue nyampur nyampurin segala macem jenis rock metal sama petikan akustik loo..

detik itu juga, gue tau kalo elo ada buat bikin hidup gue tambah metal. … okay then. tambah gila kutu bau ancur urakan dan metal norak alay kayak elu.

earthquakeeey

okay than. i know its been 2 weeks since padang big earthquake, swiss australia untill japan sent their help for us. gawwwd, .. gue kadang kadang sakit perut liat orang orang nangis meraung raung. nangisin tanah lahirnya mereka. kalo tiba tiba jakarta porak poranda juga, gue meraung raung deket kasur kali. bawa bawa ciki buat makan.

one thing that i realized, padang’s people are very very very strong. they just need 2weeks to stand up again. even their lovely bala bala housey had already gone. even their relatives had already died. but yeah. they stand up again, work and study again. together to build up their housey bala bala by theirselves. isnt great?

and yeah. gue pengen jadi relawan. dateng kesana, dan bantuin angkat2. cuma itu yg gw bisa.

homo

okay, since you are homo jelek gendut bau kutu metal asem ketek cupu jorok tapi gaul smilingmachine gokil and those shits. im die. okay im really die when i was walking beside you. when you were talking to me, closing your mouth with your big black hand : im die. when you were talking closer and closer with your girl friends.. IM REALLY DIE.

gosh.  im fuvcking jealous.

screw, i want USA.

uh okay, gue besok mid test biologi sama sejarah tapi tadi siang tidur udah kayak kebo cacingan trus pergi les dan skrg masih belajar monera. grrraaaw. so yeah i got a story to tell, hem.

first thing, my campus life is still 3 years again, but yeaaaah me likey thinking abt campus life, majoring, university abroad, internship.. kayaknya gue lbh cocok jadi konsultan pendidikan daripada duduk di bangku kelas X… cuih cuih makin geli aja bahasa gue.

barusan gue baru aja ngobrol sama student wallstreet, she’s indonesian but live in LA for last 6 years. ngebayanginnya udah gatel gatel gue.., what the fvck her accent just like a professional she talked like a authenticated bule. faaaaark.

move on, she took double major (broadcasting & fashion merchandising) in USC. okay. university of southern california. double faaark. i just thinking to take double major. kalo bisa fashion sama arsitek. ga nyambung? bodo amaaaat hahahaha.

and theeeen. she got an intership at warnerbros studio. okay.. im pretty jealous GAGAAAAA i waaaant. and yeah, she also got a ticket to oscar award etc.. just like dream. please dear warner bros studio, universal studio, or even Vogue.. accept me as your company’s secretary. gawd.

so i think, the different between new zealand’s education (as my mama want) with US’s education is just the link. oke pelajarannya kayaknya kitu kitu wae ya. mau sekolah dimana juga majoring apa juga sama sama aja ya gak ya gak. tapi menurut gue, di new zealand, oke paling gue akan meraup dollar di aust. dan gue pengennya jadi arsitek atau kerja di developer. sound’s like a young executive right? kebayang bcbg max azria pencil skirt… hahaha kutu lo jen.

kalo di US? gaaaah sambil kuliah bisa internship di mekdi. oke. McD. jadi cucicuci piring 3 hari pertama trus jadi cashier dua bulan berikutnya jg oke. lumayan kan gajinya kata temen gue bisa beli sepatu zara on sale. maknyaaaak. trus kalo udah semester akhir, maunya intern di fashion magz. okaaay its good then when you get NY fashion week ticket.. in a front row. bastard. I WAAAAAANNNT.

okay. stop stop. biologi besok.. monera belom belajar nyeeeet. yeah got stressed about future education is better than pusing belajar monera unimportant itu hehehehe. (melet melet)

so everybodyyy? anyone can give me some info abt US education? okay not in LA, not in new york, san fransisco or holywood. gaaah i want but the living cost is berry berry expensive. nyokap gw bisa gantung diri kalo bayarin gue sekolah di LA, sambil party2 akhir bulan. di pinggir2 ajaa.. tp jangan pinggir pinggir amat di tengah hutan belantara sambil kuliah sambil memburu babi hutan di amazon gaaaah makin primitif gw entaaar.

feel free to give me a comment here, or maybe advice for my messyfuckup grammar.. leave here

bunch kisss <3

update : anyway im going to school abroad not because i hate my indonesiaaan kiss kiss but yeah, raihlah ilmu sampai ke negri cina. jajah cina pake cara modern. gue bikin batik songket besok naik tingkat ke atas catwaaalk. raaawwr.

last timey.

okay, actually i have to study sociology for midtest tmrw. but yeeaaaah, i also have to upload some photos. keep twittering (udah kayak apaan aja) and install ms.office 2007 fuck things. gagaaaaa lama banget installnya nunggu gue jadi manusia purba baru kelar kali -,-

anyway. cellyn told me, that you cant find a man like him. he’ just one. mau nyari sampe ngobok ngobok satu jagat raya juga gak ada yang sama. you can’t compare him to another man. you know that the situation is veryberry different.

..

gawd, how stupid i am. im waiting for days, become months, and year. keep comparing him to every single man come to me, and yeah.. i just realized that i am sick. i am sick of a man like him. for days, months, and year.

i already wrote this promise two times or thousand times. but this is the last time. i promise to myself. this is the last time. thinking abt him, comparing to him, dreaming himself, and other unspecific unimportant though abt him.

.. i just found.., nyai ronggeng. yeah i know flirting to nyai ronggeng is a big fault. but this is life. can be up can be down. it isnt fault. its just a difference between junior high life and senior high life.

hello nyai ronggeng. homo lu. hahaha.